Wrong Side of the Road

Something hit me the other day
Everything had an added shade.
A shade that I'd never seen,
or maybe even never dreamed.

Pictured myself to be on the wrong side
of the most normal things.
All odds set against me
I'm running to break free.

Hate how it feels
to drive
on the Wrong Side
of the Road.
Tire-tracks on the melting asphalt,
Tattooed forevermore.

Not brave enough,
to cross the road,
wearing a blind-fold.
To be run over to be seen,
Not breathing anymore.

Thank You For Not Believing

Its like set in stone,
What I do
is never enough.

Wondering
What I did wrong,
to hit the wrong spot
All The Time.

Wondering
If there ever was something I did,
That didn't really hurt your fragile soul,

That you concluded,
I enjoyed doing it,
Watching you fall defeated.

Thank you.

Thank you for making me realize,
My actions were never right.
For making me understand,
my most insignificant words
can come out as loud and clear
To rip off your ego apart.

Thank you for not believing
In me...

Tell Myself I'm Living Life

I tell myself I’m living life,
Pretending it’s a “feel-good” ride,
Stealing glances away from all lies.

Pretending it never happened
That it never existed,
That I’m starting all over
From where I left off.

Evading all concerns-
So superficial.
With a smile on my face-
So artificial.
I could never forget the times
When I felt happy
Being Invisible.

I was all but nothing
Nothing in the game.
Just the last piece standing,
Left to lose,
In the hands of you.

It was my own, after all
However it was.
Doesn’t matter now,
I’ve lost the cause.
It holds my name no more
A part of me wounded,
That’ll never restore.

I tell myself I’m living life…

Wishing it never happened…


// Another of my emotionally close pieces. These really mean a lot to me. Seemed some moments ago that I was relaxed, when I got another "chapter" of my life to deal with. Just trying to drift away from it all, constantly telling myself, "Its okay". Dunno how long will that continue to be so, that is..... =/

Invisible

Never wanted,
Wanted only to be pushed
Over from behind.
Only to fall after I’ve played my part,
I rise all over again
Doing it all from the start.

When nobody sees me,
Nobody cares,
I’m happy.

None to bother to break me apart
That’s still due on recovering.

Never heard out,
Heard only to be laughed at,
Sneer behind my back,
Only to fall after I’ve let it all out of me,
I become silent in constant wonder,
How insignificant I can be.

When nobody hears my screams,
Nobody cares,
I’m happy.

None to bother to break me apart,
That’s still due on recovering.

Insignificant,
Invisible,
Things I’ll never grow out of,
What I’ll always be,
But I’m not complaining,
I’m still happy.

Still wishing,
Never to be seen.

// I HAD to vent out. There was nothing else I could do. Maybe I have a problem that I cant really explain. I just cant seem to even "try" to set things right. All i do is to let it have an effect on me, make myself suffer, even for someone else's actions. Maybe I AM the one to blame here.... I really dunno.