Blank Screen

Staring at the blank screen,
Trying to find whats behind it.
You search in your memories,
To find me in it.
But I'm not there,
You've erased me out of your mind,
Made it a blank screen,
Walked away, leaving me behind.

Hide yourself inside me,
Look out through the pitch-black darkness,
To find nothing but blankness.
Dead memories erased
from what you found in me:
Your sanity.

Stare at the blank screen
To find yourself in it.
And if your eyes can see through it,
Find me standing behind,
Still seated in your memories,
Still somewhere at the back of your mind.

Defense Mechanism

There you are,
Fortifying your defense mechanism.
Collecting colors through your defences.
Looking through your glass prism.
Filtering shades to hide
yourself in it.

To call it your own,
So you can hide,
Behind the outward illusion you made.
Alone.
So you can hide,
To make me see:
You're off alone.
You dont need me.

There you are.
Rebuilding you defense mechanism.
Destroyed by my friendly overtures.
Collecting bricks from our stoned heart.
Flaming through your brick-kiln.
Casting a roof to hide
yourself under it.

To call it your own,
So you can hide,
Behind the walls you made to stand.
Fully defended.
So you can hide,
To make me see:
You're off alone without me.
You're staying away from me.

But there's nothing I can do
To keep myself from you.

Emotional Fool

This insignificance has got on me.
I cant turn a single head
as I enter the room.
I'm your emotional fool.
Playing cool with what I used to dread.
Or maybe just pretending to play cool.

Playing hide and seek with my tears
You play with me.
You're my puppetteer.
I cry when you pull the strings.
Hold my tears back,
obeying your will.
I'm your emotional fool.
Dressed to please.
Dancing when you want me to.

I dance to your tunes.
Dress myself as and when you want me to.
Draining the blood of the wounds
That I bled
For you.
I'm your emotional fool.
Dancing with the flow.
Still residing inside what you've left dead.
Screaming to let go.

Shattered Dreams.

Brick by brick,
I laid the foundation
Of my dreams, my hopes,
That promised me the world.

Blow by blow,
They got shattered,
Leaving me shocked by the way,
The cards on the table unfurled.

Stranded in this desert in my mind,
There's no water to pacify my burning throat.
The oasis that I see in the horizon,
Is nothing but a false illusion,
Chances of it turning into reality
Being nothing but remote.

Blinded by the curtains that has fell upon my eyes,
I can see nothing but the bluntness of your lies,
That are unbecoming of the truth:
I'm lost.
Lost beyond being found.
Swearing words that I can no longer hear
Till they come back flying around,
To hit me with force,
Burying me in rock-bottom.

But at least I left my mark somewhere,
If not in the wrecked mess of my life...

Well, believe it or not.. this is actually a Christmas gift to The Fragile Rose :P , although its far from being in the festive spirit!! :P

A True Lie

Fragments of my grace that I had willingly thrown.
Trying to hide behind this fake smile that I had sewn.
Killing my conscience when it kept striking by.
For all these years, I have been living a big lie.

A lie that I created,
Thinking it won't be a big deal.
Never keeping facts and fiction seperated.
Dying to make it look somehow real.

A lie that I've held on too strong,
Too much more than my will could ever allow.
A lie I've stretched on for too long,
That its somehow become the truth now.

But no more am I able to play this part,
That has turned me stranger to my own eyes.
No more am I able to carry this heavy secret to heart.
That has made me living a life full of lies.

But I guess this is the way things are gonna be.
Living the lie as if it were true.
The lie you consider to be a mystery.
The truth I've so long kept away from you.

Blocked Senses

I close my eyes,
So I can linger in the darkness
That I can summon at will.
Thinking even the world'll fail to see me,
As I hide in the dark spaces,
Where even light won't ever fill.

I shut my ears,
So I can float in the odd humming within my blocked senses,
Whenever I want to.
Wishing I can escape from the mocking voices,
I get from the world around me.
'Fraid that the fears they keep on reminding me,
Hold true.

I burn my skin,
So I can hide my weak soul
Thats hidden inside.
So no one can see through my burnt flesh and see my world collide,
As my fears vent out in the open.

Trying hard to run away,
But unknowingly taking the fall
For the worse as I fall prey to my own fears.
But I can't seem to escape from it all.

With You

Took your last breath, breathing my name,
wanting to see me before you left.
But I wasn't there to hold you by my side.
I was so out of my mind, I can never forgive myself.
But I couldn't seem to be able to say goodbye.

Head over heels,
I have been for you.
But how I feel,
won't matter to you.
Cos you're not there too see my heart-ache,
For you're no more here with me.
You've gone far away,
To a world I can't possibly call real.

A world that won't welcome me,
However hard I try.
They say its not my time yet.
But I am the one who's willing to die!
Just to be with you...