The Darkness!! (Made up anime series) :P

Boredom does indeed lead to strange things. The 2 hour physics classes can be really counted as one of the most sinfully boring things for a person like me, or any other person for that matter! There I was, in one of the last benches, my mind drawing up several visions and dreams right in front of the teacher, who could have well sworn that I was concentrating on what he was trying to say :P . One anime face led to another and... next thing I knew, I had a whole variety of different characters and expressions!! xD




P.S : The Japanese written in the picture will not make sense to a reader who can read the language (Jussi, you may try!! xD ) I copied some alphabets from my keyboard's User Manual xD . Apologies if anyone's offended =/

Uncomfortable Silences

When no words are spoken for a long time,
Not a word, when you're with her.
When you are quiet
and in silence, you've found your world.
And Still you feel your time's worth spent,
Still you find peace in the silence,
That's when you know,
The love you have is still there.

When the mind runs short of the right words.
When it fights to find them.
When it knows it should say something,
But not what to say,
or How to say it.
When you find yourself
Strangulated,
in the Uncomfortable Silences,
That's when you know,
Its Over.

Not Your Suicide

Cut yourself a vein.
Your only way
To run away
From the shame
That’s not even yours.

See the flow of red
On the floor below
As your eyes drowse to darkness.
Your only way
To free you from yourself.

You’re not gonna die
But live through the pain
Not more than the one
To drive you to your exteme.
See the blade’s edge
Tainted with what you called
Betrayal.
Your insides burning up
Drawing hallucinations in your head
Seeking your revenge
From yourself.

One full flashback of memories,
That could last a lifetime
In seconds.

When your eyes finally take the fall,
While the pain grows up on you
In seconds.

Whatever you do,
You’re not gonna die anyway.

Its not your suicide
It’s a new beginning…

Wrong Side of the Road

Something hit me the other day
Everything had an added shade.
A shade that I'd never seen,
or maybe even never dreamed.

Pictured myself to be on the wrong side
of the most normal things.
All odds set against me
I'm running to break free.

Hate how it feels
to drive
on the Wrong Side
of the Road.
Tire-tracks on the melting asphalt,
Tattooed forevermore.

Not brave enough,
to cross the road,
wearing a blind-fold.
To be run over to be seen,
Not breathing anymore.

Thank You For Not Believing

Its like set in stone,
What I do
is never enough.

Wondering
What I did wrong,
to hit the wrong spot
All The Time.

Wondering
If there ever was something I did,
That didn't really hurt your fragile soul,

That you concluded,
I enjoyed doing it,
Watching you fall defeated.

Thank you.

Thank you for making me realize,
My actions were never right.
For making me understand,
my most insignificant words
can come out as loud and clear
To rip off your ego apart.

Thank you for not believing
In me...

Tell Myself I'm Living Life

I tell myself I’m living life,
Pretending it’s a “feel-good” ride,
Stealing glances away from all lies.

Pretending it never happened
That it never existed,
That I’m starting all over
From where I left off.

Evading all concerns-
So superficial.
With a smile on my face-
So artificial.
I could never forget the times
When I felt happy
Being Invisible.

I was all but nothing
Nothing in the game.
Just the last piece standing,
Left to lose,
In the hands of you.

It was my own, after all
However it was.
Doesn’t matter now,
I’ve lost the cause.
It holds my name no more
A part of me wounded,
That’ll never restore.

I tell myself I’m living life…

Wishing it never happened…


// Another of my emotionally close pieces. These really mean a lot to me. Seemed some moments ago that I was relaxed, when I got another "chapter" of my life to deal with. Just trying to drift away from it all, constantly telling myself, "Its okay". Dunno how long will that continue to be so, that is..... =/

Invisible

Never wanted,
Wanted only to be pushed
Over from behind.
Only to fall after I’ve played my part,
I rise all over again
Doing it all from the start.

When nobody sees me,
Nobody cares,
I’m happy.

None to bother to break me apart
That’s still due on recovering.

Never heard out,
Heard only to be laughed at,
Sneer behind my back,
Only to fall after I’ve let it all out of me,
I become silent in constant wonder,
How insignificant I can be.

When nobody hears my screams,
Nobody cares,
I’m happy.

None to bother to break me apart,
That’s still due on recovering.

Insignificant,
Invisible,
Things I’ll never grow out of,
What I’ll always be,
But I’m not complaining,
I’m still happy.

Still wishing,
Never to be seen.

// I HAD to vent out. There was nothing else I could do. Maybe I have a problem that I cant really explain. I just cant seem to even "try" to set things right. All i do is to let it have an effect on me, make myself suffer, even for someone else's actions. Maybe I AM the one to blame here.... I really dunno.