Quicksand

Here I lie
With a serene smile,
In quicksand.
Watching the sun set,
The light drawing out forever from my day,
Filling the void chambers of my heart with shades of grey.

The more I fight,
The more I drown.
Up there, the tyrant laughs
Wearing his mighty crown.
Did he call me back in his life just to see me die?
I don’t know.
And I don’t care.
I’ll just give in to this quicksand,
Drown myself with a smile.

The winds carrying the cursed words
That he did swear to me;
Resounding in my ears,
Poisoning me to the core;
Destroying my self-confidence even more.

Here I lie
With a serene smile.
Defying all rules of rhymes
In this unnamed poetry of my life.
Surrendering to this quicksand all the while;
Escaping from his tyrant reign.

Did he do what he did to see me in utter pain?
Does he even deserve to be called “Father”?
I don’t know.
And I don’t care.

I’ll just let myself to this quicksand
With a serene smile;
To escape from it all after all this while…

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this one's a real personal piece, makes me sad everytime i read it :(