Roadblocks and Roadsigns

Walking over dead grass,
Under the scorching Sun,
By the side of the highway,
Avoiding being overrun.

You've broken me too many times
And tried mending me back.
I let you do it all
Thinking I was on the right track.

This road leads to unknown places,
But I don't know where to go.
All I know is that I'm searching for the sign,
To direct me the way, away from home.

It's time that you understood,
Your memories are blocking my path.
Why do you want me to take this as a sign?
To go back to the one that was never never really mine.

You signaled me the green light,
When you knew I'd be overrun.
I cant listen to you now
You better be happy, now that you've won.

You're the Roadblock in my way
And the Road-sign to confirm my fear.
Blocking my way to where I need to go,
For reasons only you find real.

I'll need to find a diversion to this road,
So I know I'm not dying.
I know my chances are thin,
But that won't stop me from trying.